Wow! I knew it had been a while since I blogged but I had no idea it has been 5 months! I don't know why I do this to myself. I have missed writing down so many sayings, events, milestones and everything else in all of our lives.
Well, I am now 33 weeks pregnant (tomorrow) and soooo ready for this kid to be here! I don't know what it is about February, but for being the shortest month of the year it sure feels like the longest. This pregnancy has been easier in some ways and much harder in others. I have not struggled with the headaches as I did with Hayden and I am so thankful for that. The first trimester and even into the second I was EXTREMELY tired all the time and had more issues with mood swings and some depression. Thank the Lord that has gotten better! I am starting to get more warn out again but that's to be expected :) I am a little smaller with this baby than I was with Hayden. So far I am measuring about 2 weeks behind and have only gained 21 lbs. With Hayden I was right on with all my measurements and gained a total of 35 lbs throughout the pregnancy. The only way I am going to get that big this time is if I can 2 lbs a week till 40 weeks! I have been struggling with some anxiety as this delivery gets closer. After all the trauma with Hayden and the horrific, months long recover I am a little less than excited about this one. I haven't been very pleased with my doctor and her views on things, but I just have to remind myself that she wasn't there and doesn't understand what I went through. Kyle has been amazingly supportive of me and encourages me often to pray and hand my fears over to God. This is easier said than done for me but I am trying.
I regret that I have not recorded much with this pregnancy like I did with Hayden. I had a "Belly Book" for her and faithfully recorded everything I could think of every single week. I have all my stats for every doctors appointments and recorded everything from cravings to feelings on certain issues. I really wish I had done the same for this one if for no other reason than to remind myself. Even blogging would have been nice but I can't seem to keep up on even that!
Hayden continues to get smarter and more inquisitive every day. She's excited about being a big sister and loves to play in the baby's room. I have gotten out all her old clothes for when this new ones comes and she love to dress up her babies. Hopefully she does ok with sharing her "babies clothes" with her new sister :)
I wish that I would sit down and type up everything Hayden says as soon as she says it...I know I could fill quite a few pages with all her cute little phrases. She continues to surprise me every day. One thing she says almost on a daily basis is "who we gunna see today?" Lately it seems like we see someone almost every day and she LOVES it! I started babysitting a little boy just a few hours week and she absolutely adores Parker. If we haven't see him in a few days she'll start asking when we are going to see him again :)
Hayden fills her days with playing with Play Doh (I know, in my last blog I made a point to say she had NEVER played with Play Doh before), coloring, playing with her babies, cooking in her kitchen, reading books, making "houses" out of the couch cushions and generally running around getting into everything :) Her imagination is getting quite wild and she often makes up stories about snakes, giants, lions or scary monsters. You never know what she'll come up with next :) Another favorite thing to do is play hide and seek with daddy (mommy's not as good at it). She'll hide but of course can't stay put till someone finds her. She would rather have daddy go hide and absolutely loves it when he jumps out of his hiding spot and scares her to death. She screams at the top of her lungs and runs to find me saying "daddy's gitting me!!!" And, wow, can that girl scream. She has so much energy and I am very thankful for her daddy time when she can get rid of a little of it by running all over the house.
One of her other favorite things is MOPS. She has so much fun going to church and seeing all her friends. I have gotten to the point where I don't tell her we are going until the night before because if I say something too early it's all she'll talk about. She also got to go to Sunday School for the first time last Sunday. Two seems a little young to be sitting and listening so much but her teacher said she had 11 kids in there and Hayden did great! Kudos to that S.S. teacher! I would love to sit in sometime at MOPS or S.S. just to see what she does. I have never seen in her that type of structured setting and I am curious to see how she acts. Everybody always says she does great and is so good, but sometimes ya just gotta know for yourself :)
She will still take a nap most days, usually a little over an hour. Mommy is VERY happy about that. I am not sure what I would do without nap time. On the other hand though, it's usually not that end of the world if she misses her nap once in a while which is nice if we want to go do something. We are also working on potty training. I have to say that I had more issues with it at first than she did. I don't always have the most patience. But she's doing great! She's completely out of diapers during the day and will only wear one on trips or to church and at night time. She probably could wear her "big girl undies" to church too but I don't want to leave that for the nursery workers to deal with if she has an accident. She is always dry on Sunday's though...even with a diaper on. *sigh* my baby girl is growing up!
Hayden has recently started showing a much bigger interest in God/Jesus. Exciting and answer to prayer for mom and dad! Last week we were driving in the car at night and she was seeing all the streetlights and lights from other cars. She kept saying, "there's God!" At first we were really confused about why she thought the lights were God but later I remembered that in on of the pictures in her Bible there is a picture of God on a throne. It's just a bright light shining so I think that may be where she came up with it. Anyway, we explained to her that God was up in heaven and we couldn't see Him but He could see us. She was a little confused by that but I said that God was going to come get us someday and take us to heaven to be with Him. She liked that idea a lot! She would ask things like, Will God hold me? Will God play with me? Can I see Him? I told her that God would love to hold her when she got to heaven and He would love to play with her too. She got so excited and clapped her hands like it was the funnest thing she had ever heard. Kyle and I were both struggling to keep back the tears I think. It's so awesome to see our little girl so excited about God and seeing Him. I have to admit though...in my selfish mind I couldn't help but think, "But not right now, God; please don't hold her for a while. I am not ready to let go yet." We keep praying for her salvation and can't wait until the day when she decides to follow Christ.
Well, hopefully my next blog won't be in another 5 months! I miss so much of our lives when I let too much time pass.
